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[Dec. 15th, 2009|05:01 pm] |
I was a penguin in profile. Probably.
A-no... I have done nothing productive today, and very little that is unproductive. |
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| For today, |
[Dec. 14th, 2009|03:24 pm] |
| [ | Tags | | | advent calendar | ] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Upstairs | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  weird | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Love & Joy (can't remember the artist's name... >.<) | ] |
It was a bauble.
Matthew's college is finished for Christmas. I slept in until after 10, but when I realised I wouldn't be getting any peace, I ate ice cream for breakfast. XD It got rid of the annoyed, groggy feeling.
I had to run (scamper/stride) to get to the train on time. It was pulling up as I went down the stairs to the platform. Lucky~
Oresama no CD = cute. :3 |
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| I forgot something. |
[Dec. 12th, 2009|10:36 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Downstairs | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  confused | ] |
I think it was yesterday. I wanted to say something along the lines of 'Alfred is a poopy-face!' Possibly in caps.
Seriously, he's so mean to poor Iggy. *thinks of that face he makes in that one strip...*
As for the mood: fanfiction = happy, but chest ache. |
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| Misleading... |
[Dec. 12th, 2009|12:59 pm] |
| [ | Tags | | | advent calendar | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  lethargic | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Just Be Meltdown | ] |
When I opened the little door, I thought 'Oh! It's a holly leaf.', due to the irregular hexagon. But it wasn't. It was a candy cane with a bow around it. ^^;; |
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| Today. |
[Dec. 11th, 2009|10:00 pm] |
| [ | Tags | | | advent calendar, dreams | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  calm | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | I Like Your Booty (But I'm Not Gay), apparently (from those various APH vids) | ] |
It was a cute little old-fashioned car. :3
I had a bad dream! D: In it, there was a school trip to some place in some city (in fact, I think ti was meant to be Bath and we were at the uni'. But no.), and I talked to a couple of people (separately) and we made plans to go into the centre for a couple of things during lunch (which was 'short', only half an hour or an hour, and supposedly required some travelling as well). Another girl approached me and made a suggestion as well, but I said 'maybe, as I already have a couple of plans'.
There's some very bizarre stuff with Jamie singing and entertaining kids and possibly in drag- when he came close (we were all sitting on a wall(?)/raised area behind; the kids were in front), I ran my hands up him. We were interacting a small amount. I was acting kind of haughty, but I knew it was meant to be a male role for some reason. XD One of the people there made a comment about him(/"her") having no chance with me (in character), and I smiled at the irony.
Somehow, lunch came around and I ended up hanging out with a bunch of (loser/reject/not that entertaining) people, and eventually left with about 15 minutes to spare (this gives me the impression lunch was an hour). It was a short travel through a forested/park area and then the centre of the city was right there. Everyone was crowded half-in, half-out of one building, and a bunch of people waved as I turned up. I believe the building was an arcade, as everyone was 'playing games' (this knowledge is based on a phone call that occured before I went out).
Jamie, someone I believe was intended to be another Jamie (who used to be in my tutor group at St. Brn.) and a couple of other guys ended up around me as we walked in a line (one Jamie on each side, the others to Jamie's (you know, the important one) left.
I started complaining and raising my voice, and Jamie (the other one) was replying. I got fed up of him and said I wasn't here to talk to him, possibly pushing him away a little, and turning to the left. I asked why it didn't occur to everyone to tell me what was going on and asked if they were assuming that girls didn't like games (I said this, but I meant 'me', as there were a number of girls there (most of the people, in fact, particularly those outside looking in, who were the ones I saw).
So yeah. A dream about the perpetual concern I have of being left out.
I had a nap in the afternoon and woke up very confused as it was getting dark (I believe as I woke up I thought it was supposed to be morning, so therefore lighter than when I went to sleep). Other than that, I have been reading a couple of fanfics (I finished the multi-chaper FrUK I was on yesterday, and have mostly been looking for smut.), playing Bright Shadow, and been on YouTube a little.
Still a bit meh, but I'm actually fairly cheery for now (was worse this morning after that dream).
Joined some Photo Diary site that I've already forgot the URL/name for. *plods off to look it up*
... You know, it's amazing how many words it takes to summarise something, when you see them written down. Either that, or I just blab a lot. |
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| It's a... |
[Dec. 10th, 2009|12:22 pm] |
lamb..?
Still feeling bleh.
Also, I tried to learn how to do squats. I don't get it/can't do them. It feels like very good exercise for my lower abdomen, and it makes my legs quake (but not feel particularly worked), but does absolutely nothing to my bum.
We might be going to the Cadbury shop soon-ish. I also want to go for a walk. And get pissed, but meh. |
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[Dec. 9th, 2009|11:52 pm] |
Maybe I just need my injection. *thinks back to her random 'outburst' back in college*
Buuut~ I feel so guilty and strange and insecure because if Jamie noticed I was acting weird he might have disliked it. And I was wondering the other day (90% likely it was falsely) if I was somehow in a subtly abusive relationship that I hadn't been aware of. But it can't be true. It's my own neuroses. :)
Also, I think I want a chemical peel. *looked very blemished as she got ready today* |
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| State Dependency..? |
[Dec. 9th, 2009|11:41 pm] |
I just came up with a theory as to why my number of memories from one period of time to the next are so poor- It's state dependent.
If I go from one 'life state' to another, I forget a fair amount of the past. Then again, it could just be a lack of revision of the memories.
But, for example, I can barely remember any specific interactions with Jamie before very close to us becoming a couple. There's the orgy at the tree, him playing the zip on my top, and very vaguely us talkign about KH/sharing his MP3 player. Other than that it's the 28th of June (the Saturday before) and on. But I know I must have been preoccupied for a reason.
Also, the whole 'before I got into SA2B and (subsequently) yaoi' phase. It was vague even soon after.
Also also (on a largely unrelated note), I just had a very weird moment with Jamie. He phoned as I was finishing changing for bed and turning my laptop back on/unlocking it. He's at an aunt's house (mother's side), and 'a bit drunk' and 'probably not gonna' be on MSN much'. I'm not sure what triggered it, although my mind did provide a few theories/reasons, but I believe I said 'bye' and hung up as he started to say something else. *facepalm* (I'm unsure as I had already removed the phone from my ear.)
But... I just feel like crying. And I think he completely forgot about my interview today, since George said good luck last night and asked first thing when he called today how it went. (Awkward sentence is awkward.)
Of course, I specifically mentioned it to him yesterday and might not have said anything to Jamie. But still.
I don't get it, but I feel like [doing] nothing. And I don't know why it hurts.
And I was so looking forward to reading more of this fanfic I started before True Blood.
And it's not like I can even talk to George about it because a) He's not online and b) He's secretly a little self-centered and it would be largely fruitless.
.... I want to be "a little bit" drunk, too. |
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| It was... |
[Dec. 9th, 2009|03:56 pm] |
| [ | Tags | | | advent calendar, work | ] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | im Bett | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | calm | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Shania Twain- You're Still the One | ] |
Unambiguously, a robin on a branch!
... I didn't get the job today. The people seemed nice and it would have been convenient, but I'm not heartbroken. And the pay was tiddly. (Not enough to fully support oneself on.) |
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| We believe.... |
[Dec. 8th, 2009|11:51 am] |
It was a soldier. Possibly molded on the child of a smurf and a jelly baby.
... I'm finding my brother's prescence downstairs increasingly agitating. -.- Both during the day and at night while we're trying to sleep. He seems to delay going to his other place more and more recently.
And I find this agitation harder to deal with when I don't have the company of Jamie as well (to calm me/complain with). *sigh*
... I have too many tabs open. |
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| Today~ |
[Dec. 7th, 2009|12:43 pm] |
It was a wise man. Jamie also thinks it may have been Indiana Jones.
I found out the hard way, today, that my shoes aren't waterproof. I also had thick-ish socks on. Walking up stairs caused an unpleasant slurping sensation on my arches.
Apparently, I have to go in to Job Seekers every week for the next six weeks...! *hmphf* |
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| Calendar~ |
[Dec. 6th, 2009|11:17 pm] |
It was either a very malnourished reindeer, or an angel with a very large cow's head.
... I had to change the date because it's 00:17. u.u
This site is addictive and awesome. Although I'm not sure all stories are 100% accurate... |
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| My diet of chocolate... |
[Dec. 5th, 2009|11:52 am] |
| [ | Tags | | | advent calendar | ] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Downstairs | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  okay | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Matthew has started playing his Christmas songs...... | ] |
It was a choo-choo train. And they are in the same positions, how lazy! I mean, I had my suspicions about ones of the same design, but these are different! :o (Note: I'm not really that shocked, but I think they should do better.)
I'm now having a Lindor and awaiting a breakfast/lunch of tea and bourbons. ^.^
Yesterday, I ate a lot (as in, felt a little uncomfortable in my fullness for half the day), but I went from 3.5 in the morning, to 6.5 or so last night, and then down to 3 today. -_- *facepalm* |
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| It was a Christmas Pud. |
[Dec. 5th, 2009|12:25 am] |
それだけです。
Jamie's calendar has the same chocs as mine, although I haven't checked if they're in the same positions. :3 |
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| Calendar |
[Dec. 3rd, 2009|02:11 pm] |
| [ | Tags | | | advent calendar | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | cheerful | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Wonder Girls- Ee Babo | ] |
I think it was a boy carol singer...
I watched a Korean film called 'The Way Home' this morning. Pretty good, but I wanted to see how he was when he went back to the city as well. ^_^;
Everest phoned today, and they're coming to fit the new door tomorrow..! *gnaws fingernails* |
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| Today... |
[Dec. 2nd, 2009|04:42 pm] |
| [ | Tags | | | advent calendar | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  sleepy | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Hatsune Miku- Konbini (in my head) | ] |
It was a snowflake(-on-a-blob). I guess it wasn't considered structurally sound on its own.
I watched a documentary/movie at 2:15 last night, so I've been watching telly (some pretty interesting programmes on Yesterday)/dozing on the settee until now. :3 |
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| December again~! |
[Dec. 1st, 2009|03:51 pm] |
This year, I have a Disney Fairies calendar. Not ideal but could be a lot worse. ^.^
Today, it was a Christmas tree. With dimples (baubles) which made it look suspiciously like a strawberry...
It's rather chilly today, and my brothers are concerned that the fire is dangerous, so I haven't had it on. T^T I have a hot water bottle right now, though. |
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| A certain Japanese-learning website... |
[Nov. 19th, 2009|06:02 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Upstairs | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  aggravated | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Russia's 'Maru Kaite Chikyuu' is still playing through my head after ep' 43. | ] |
Sent me an email saying the following about a 'great deal' a new intern had lined up:
"I am offering you a one-time only, 80% off a 1-month Premium subscription. That's right, just $5 for a 1-month Premium subscription! (That is about 1£ or 2€ if you're in the UK or Europe!!)"
Utter bullshit. -_- This guy clearly has NO understanding of the exchange rates in general, let alone considering the weakness of the Pound at present.
On top of that, it's false representation against the naive amongst us, which could have very quickly been avoided (were it not, most likely, intentional) with a quick glance in the direction of XE.com.
Not saying it's not a good deal. Just that they're talking rubbish. |
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| A state of sleep? |
[Nov. 17th, 2009|06:54 am] |
| [ | Tags | | | work | ] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | In bed | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | confused? | ] |
When Dad just woke me up, I was surprised to find that I was asleep. Although I have been dreaming, I've also been turning over wishing I could sleep properly.
I think there was also a lot of Being Erica dialogue in my head...
When I first woke, I felt a very strong wave of nausea. Now I just have a headache in my left temple. *fuu* |
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